Sunday, March 11, 2007

My friend will be missed

My dear friend, Harold, passed away this past Friday evening. Harold was a resident of the Veteran's Home. He died battling lung cancer, he was only 67. I was fortunate to be able to say my goodbye's to him before he passed. I kissed him on the cheek and whispered to him that "it was alright to go....your lovely wife is waiting for you". Hubby and I had grown very close to him over the past two years. He loved music......especially, Etta James. Oh, how he loved Etta!Hubby burned countless CD's for him. Harold served his country in the Army, then he served the people by being a Philadelphia police officer. Harold was a every sense of the word. I will miss his beautiful smile and gentle nature. "love you, Harold".

Harold NEVER had any visitors at the home. NEVER once. As far as I knew, he didn't have any family.
Oh, how the vultures reveal themselves when someone is dying. There was family afer all. How they all swooped in and took all of his possessions even before he took his last breath. The son of bitches..........I hope they burn in hell. How can people be so cruel? I can't even think how family can be so fuckin' cruel. Yes, I am mad as hell. I am sick with anger and hurt for him.

I went to his room today and stood in the emptiness. Seeing everything that was there before, that wasn't there now. I felt so sad..........I felt so empty.
When hubby and I were returning from outside (had a cigg), I saw Harold's wheel chair in the hall. I walked passed it, then turned back because something caught my attention. It was Harold's little piggy cigarette lighter just lying on the seat. It was the lighter that I always talked about when he showed it to me. It was so cute.
I took the lighter...........someway, somehow, that lighter was meant for me to find. An act of God? I think so.
I shiver when I write this. It is so weird and I guess, fateful.

I put the lighter on the table next to my chair to remind me of my friend.

Thursday, February 08, 2007


I'm not terribly shocked at Anna Nicole's untimely death. It's very sad, but not shocking at all. She lived fast and furious. I've always had a fondness for her and I guess I kinda felt sorry for her too. I watched her reality show, it was funny as heck. She drew you in with her incredible beauty and her crazy/weird antics. I always looked forward to see what the hell she was going to do next.
I was so sorry to hear that she beautiful, so young........and a new baby girl to boot. It's a real shame.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

feeling puny

Argh.......I'm coming down with something. My throat is sore and I feel achy all over. My first sickness this winter, I guess that isn't too bad.

I've been trying to get organized around here......papers and stuff. I cleaned out our file cabinet, I have a trash bag full of stuff that has to be burned or drowned in the sink. I have a shredder, but that takes too much time and always seems to jam up. What I usually do is fill the sink with hot water and soak the paperwork, once soaked I then ball it up in a tight ball. Mush it all together. This is the easiest way I found to destroy sensitive material.

Anyway, I found some paperwork about my citizenship. I am a citizen, but Mom and Dad failed to have my citizenship certified once they returned to the US in 1955. So, I have to haul ass to immigration and get this stuff cleared up. I can't get my drivers license renewed until this is done. I need a photo license in order to get a new passport. I need the passport in order to go to Germany this summer. What a pain in the backside. See what the terrorists accomplished? We have to go thru hell and high water in this country just to get ID's now. Sucks.

My MIL got the results from the multitude of tests she has undergone these past few months. Both lesions (on jaw and lung) are lymphoma.........non-aggressive lymphoma. She needs no treatment now, but may have too undergo chemo in the future. So, we all consider this to be good news.

In other news......I've been listening to my first audio book. It's the lazy way to read! The book is, "The Grapes of Wrath" (great book and I know you've seen the movie with Henry Fonda as Tom Joad!). Twelve cassettes............I'm on my last one now. I'll tell ya, I just love it! You can relax, turn out the lights and visualize/understand so much better. I recommend buying an audio book, just to give it a try. :-)

Tuesday, February 06, 2007


It's been as cold as a well digger's asshole in this part of the country lately! I don't mind the cold and would really be happy if we got some measureable snow! I'm a winter type of girl. Hate the summer.

I'm so excited! I ordered 4 tickets to the King Tut Exhibition in Philly, we will be going on May 6th. Just imagine seeing artifacts 3,500 years old! WOW! I love reading and learning about ancient Egypt and now I will get to see these wonderful things in person! :-)

In other news. It's a go on the addition to the house! Our contractor has been out and we are waiting for his estimate. Hopefully he can start by springtime. :-)